HAHAHA WINNNNNNNNN

[Edit] Oops wrong account, nevermind!

I'm going to name my daughters Edith and Adele!
And my sons uhhh I haven't thought of (yet).

Okay bye. GOT WORK TO DO GOT WORK TO DO GOT WORK TO DO.

1. I can't believe RED Camp 5 is over. So much I could've done, so much I would've done and so much I had eventually done. It was these 3 amazing days that I know was the most fulfilling and worthy exhaustion I've had in a long time.

2. APACHES FTW! <3 Most Drama-mama tribe awesomeness.

3. I was smiling to myself when Sarah & Sam called on Day 1 night <3

4. Bus guiding was initially a dread because it took me away from my tribe. After a while it gave me the opportunity to connect with other campers from other tribes. And *grins*, they remember me from that 5 minutes on the bus! *is touched*

5. I'm at starbucks now.
6. I should be doing work.
7. I just saw many people.
8. I should be doing work.
9. I'm going to do work.
10. Bye (:

11. [EDIT]

It's a well-known fact that students in math classes experience brain-swelling at an increase of approcimately 12.3% per lecture. How many math lectures must the student attend before his brain capacity exceeds that of Olly the lab rat?

SRSLY. WUT?!

I've decided to get myself a new organizer for 2009. Even though my current one still has space for another 8 months - damn. I can actually visualise the organizer I wish to get, and that is just terrible - because that means I'll never find it. Never will find something when I have an image of a perfect one in my mind. Gahhh.

Anyway, I had a huge ball of inspiration for a photo series hit me on my way home just now. I grabbed my pen and notebook to try pen and sketch things down and up, but I couldn't get far. ;___;

THE perfect feeling, atmosphere, imagery, whatever-you-call-that - is all locked in my mind now and GAHHHHH I'm so afraid it'll fade as time goes by, and fade as I busy myself with other things before having the time to execute the photo project! POOOO. *makes weird sounds*

"But Shepherd's Pie is like tea."
I meant for teatime - tccch - Shanya's out to make me sound like a bimbo.

Last night I came home, opened Microsoft Powerpoint, drew out the tanglement of 6 issues drilled in my head that day. It looked like this. Which is just... Not Very Helpful. I was drained, and had an early midnight.

And I really should be leaving for school. Bye.

OMG *starts to bawl uncontrollably* (for more reasons than one)

Headed to meet Haz at One Fullerton to complete some work today (where I unexpectedly got a green tea latte with toffee nut syrup!) and bumped into Val, Delle & Al! I am a keen observer of stressness. Mental note to get the picture of Alessa from Val's phone.



*grins* I amuse myself.

Anyway, most importantly...

ALL THE BEST!

Mishy, Al, Val & Delle - for your KI paper!
Sam, Lucille, Eddie, Meiyi & Everyoneeee - for your GP paper!
Dora - for your PW!

*huge hugs*

"Hi Wing"? NINGGG.

Starbucks with green tea latte the way I like it - layers of melted matcha over another. With the lack of adrenaline, sense of urgency - everything muted. Something like idling. I have no business in idling, it drives me nuts. Then I busy myself with urgencies and deadlines of nothing. I watch short films and discover music, then long to create art, long to produce something from the heart - and idle.

Being photographer for YLA4 triggered some memories from years ago, when I covered school events. Ning, oh the very frazzled and giggly girl who runs around with a camera. Talking to Sarah recently, then missing the inherent strangeness of the AEP girls ("it's like a pre-requisite!"). Talking to Sam (Chui) & Sarah (Nat), it's the comfort that allows me to tell myself that I haven't lost so much.

Aw man, I feel my mind shrivelling at the rate I think. The chain reaction and all. In any case, I should be heading off to complete some stuffies.

I met Sarah Nut after classes today to discuss about the IJTP Alumni chapter, with the priority being the tea session. Our minds were zooming with some random ideas - how awesome it is going to be. The discussion was punctuated with "Gosh, I miss IJ soooo much." every few minutes or seconds.

We were so excited, and so nostalgic. About investiture video, our random tee-shirt design, and the theme of our tea session, and playing beautiful songs.

Somewhere along the way, Sar started to tear. ): I would've too.

It seems somewhat silly, to have already left IJ for 2 years and still feel that sense of attachment and inability to put my heart down to stop missing and to stop comparing. Just being involved in the alumni chapter makes me feel really warm and fuzzy inside. I really hope everything will work out good there!

After the discussion thingah, we chatted about dreams. It's interesting, talking about things so vivid yet not happened at all. And a little creepy, funny, amusing and deep at the same time. I should keep a paper dream journal again!

Home and over MSN, Ben said that I shouldn't be so anti-social (I AM NOT LUHHHH!) - and that stemmed from another conversation I value.

Quality conversations make days wonderful.

I just got back from another awesome YLA4. It is significally different from the previous YLA - not just in the differing cohorts but also the overall experience as an SL felt distinct. It was special enough to make me sad that the next YLA will only be in March. I don't really know how to start writing about YLA4 - maybe next time - because it's past midnight and I'll never end if I start.

I spent this morning angered by the under-enriching physiology tutorial I had paid a hefty cab fare for. Well, then again.

Later at the ambassadors' room, mid-evening. Khalisah got us started on playing Word Challenge on Facebook. And that was where the insanity began - we played for 2 full hours, I think!

Marcus and Sam decided to help me and they gave up because I TYPE SO FAST THEY GET HEADACHES. SHEESH. Haha partly because I type a whole load of crap, as if inventing words. My vocabulary is a goner.

We are honestly the most self-entertaining bunch ever. We were hysterical - Marcus laughed till he fell off the chair (and sorta rolled on the floor, gasping for air --- OMG IT RHYMES) while Sam hyperventilated so badly she couldn't type. HAHA! And thinking back I honestly don't know what made us laugh so hard. You know, other than YIK and accomplishing rank #47.

All the laughter made me a very happy person today even if unnerving things happened earlier on.

It's just bizarre that I cannot fall asleep at times I actually want to. Closing my eyes for 3 hours and still remaining awake. THEN, when I have no intention of falling asleep, one second of eye-rest slips me into slumber. Sheesh.

School starts tomorrow. Which means: I get to see the classmates, queueing up to buy notes, strange people, weird modules, school is evil and shuttle bus is back! I've been assured that this semester is academically more manageable - which is strange really because I predict otherwise.

On top of it, I've found myself taking up quite a load of commitments - German, Melrose, Volunteering, Open House, RED Camp and others that my mind is obscured from right now. I think it's rather terrible, considering that I intend to take up a CCA - then again we'll see.

I mean, late November A levels are out of the picture which means I FINALLY WILL HAVE A LIFE AGAIN (it's not supposed to be ironic). How the hell to have a life with that crazy load of stuff, that I don't know. Perhaps I do believe in the elasticity of my threshold for stress, if anything, so maybe that helps.

I am at

this second, wondering why my appetite isn't here today.

this minute, feeling somewhat despondent and bogged with some Unidentified Worries.

this hour, just home, perhaps almost going to bed.

this day, chuckling a little more.

this week, realising that school starts in 2 days and that it is a point of contention of some really creepy self-debate postponed during the recent SL Camp.

this month, regressing.

this year, a strange person, to say the least.



I promised Benzley a bunny. It is something that simple and bare yet I found it sporadically pouncing upon my day as if nagging to put greater thought into it. I do think Benzley needs a pet, he has so much to give to a pet and so much to receive. My mind nags at me to put more elaborate thought, which is really baffling because there isn't much thought to put into getting him a bunny. I've ever done it, it always makes me happy and excited. Don't see where the worry comes from.

Had a strange night. Woke up a little late.

Then I headed to Queenstown library to accompany Keenan with the tribe video. Progress is there, even if it is still incomplete. I'm quite excited and will be immensely proud (which is strange, because I hardly contributed) when the video is finally up. Excited by the laughter and exclamations of the video's inherent awesomeness, HEH.

Amidst the video jibbles, we chatted a little.

I have found myself appreciating conversations of quite about any sort alot more, in that I find myself acturally seeking them daily - starting to phone people instead of being phoned. No one will know that you appreciate them unless you show them, in a form or another - I always tell people that. I need to realise that I should apply it to myself as well.

I apologise for sounding this dead.

It's just whenever I'm not dead, it never crosses my mind to post an entry on a blog. I'm assuming this to be a positive thing, actually. Seeking refuge in an outlet is rather comprehensible.

Also,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CONNIE! (:

Enjoy your 18th, you've been waiting since 5 years ago or something! HEH. Miss you loads, do take care <3

Okay. So I think I'm psychologically dependent on Aloe gel, and that my ex-obese 170g tube is in the process of being rapidly and rather uncaringly depleted.

And uhm, the packet of Kinder Bueno stayed in my peripheral vision for a few hours before being a victim of my cravings. I reckon it's quite an achievement, no?

ANYWAY, I have bluetooth-ed some YLA videos, obviously long overdue.

I should get into the habit of actually using my phone's camera features seeing that my digital camera of a year decided to die on me ever so tragically.


So while our campers were having their workshop, the SLs were uhm... hard at work generating megacheers. And alas, presenting: Adam with a personal favourite - the passion cheer! My passion! Is like FIRE! Burn the whole desertttt~~ WO DE RE QING! HAO XIANG YI BA HUO, somethingsomething SHA MO!

( we have two more under the cut! )

A quickie before bed.

Yesterday: I brought meimei swimming after a long, long time. I miss how much my siblings will tell me they love me. At least if I brought them out, I'd feel more worthy of their love. Silly and illogical perhaps, though an honest thought of an elder sister. Meimei, I love you loads - more water kungfu and perpetual sea monsters to come, I promise.

Today: Very randomly met up with Sam because I was bored and her brain was dead from prelims. I miss you loads girl! A levels should just be over soon. Oogling at pretty packaging, her mom who buys every skincare product possible, getting married in 5 years (?!!, she thinks I violently object!), coming to poly after As, economics, making use of hongyi at pastamania (no i don't, he offered!), our looming inner ah sohs and randomness along the same tangent.

I think I'm learning to be happier (: It took myself longer to realize than the people around me, though a comforting thought regardless.

Random tidbit from swimming yesterday.
We were at the jacuzzi thingah and my sister's swimsuit will puff up with the water, she assumed it's the same for me (not that it wasn't... but...). So I was there, she thought my chest was poofed up!

Beautrice: Jiejie! It's poofed with air!
Ning: It's my boobs!
Beautrice: It's water!!!
Ning: *exasperated* it's my boobs ): *sobs*

HOKAYS. I shall turn in and mentally prepare myself for my results for my first semester in ngee ann. Shucks.

by appu_jasu

Dear Everyone.

At Starbucks now, it is uncharacteristically noisy. I feel like I need a good book.

LOOKING!: Olive/Cream/Navy/Brown Light Fleece Pullovers! Hoodie not necessary.
I don't care if it's from school or anything ): I just want one for warmth's sake.

I love people who have a passion for talking about their art.
- Divulging the details people may deem redundant, like showing off his baby's latest tooth.

It makes me smile.
I want and need that passion.

I DISMANTLED THE LC-A AND FIXED IT BY JUST POKING IT! AHHHHA.
I should honestly consider camera repair as a career.



I really suck at this surprising people thing. "Okay uhm see you later! UHHHH! I mean - see you soon!" Meh-heh.

Happy 18th dearie! I hope you enjoyed our little random dinner! <33 I shall zonk by to visit Buddy one day!

I'm back from YLA3 with half my voice left but it was SLAMMING :D The ninjas were the wildest tribe! Our campers were awesome <3

We have our ice-king and breakdancer (who is my dance partner!? - Can you picture the scene!), and some serious talent there. We have a lemon who composes songs and survived after ning's l33t throwing skills had a pen bounce off his head. Our girls were sweet and were all ready to unleash their super ninja powers especially my roomies Kerrie, Melissa and Brenda. I'm terribly proud of everyone of you! *bursts into cheer*

Of course, we had tons of fun as SLs too. Our first night had the coolest tribal council possible. Second night, I uhmm... lost every round of Pig. DANG. Ohoh, and we doodled over Kenny & some campers. Heh, my masterpieces aren't as great as Adam & Khaidan's but I'm still proud of my clouds and cauliflowers :D

( Personal messages to our SLs (: )
THE MEME I PROMISED
1. next to each number, write only the name of the person who fits.
2. answer one question with one name.
3. don't tell the questions to anyone who isn't doing the meme.

( And onnnn to the meme )